Life just keeping on going and going…..
By Jermyn Voon
As I reflect on the past 3 months of college and life, I am still in awe that I am here at this point. It seems like yesterday, it is a dream, a dream that seemed so distant and big or too far out for a person to get. Wow! I don’t why I all of a sudden starting to think about my life and the memories I have had but I think it is because the weather outside.
I am here now and I was there. Wow, I guess this is what life is all about. This is what it means to “take” a piece of paper and a pen and write the next chapter or chapter(s) of your life. I guess this is what it means when people say that in college, you will find out what life means and what is important to you. People have told me that you go through some very happy and joyful times and will also experience some rock bottoms where times of sadness & hardships will test your mental, physical, and psychological strengths. I guess in those times of sadness & hardships, you will find out what your life means to you.
I miss confronting sense of the familiarity and known. Elementary, Junior High & High school, gave us and give me (me especially) that sense. A sense that you knew what or where you were going to be and what was expected of you. You knew the future and you knew that if you messed up there was always someone to pull you back. For me, even work is starting to feel the same way. Being a cashier, I knew what I needed to do and what the expectations were but for some reason now (being a senior cashier/supervisor) I have started to noticed that I am at times missing that sense because I am supposed to be the one who is giving that direction or providing that guidance. It is funny to think, how in 18 yrs of life, that the roles change and that it is now up to you to do same thing as what your parents or guardians used to provide you. You need to provide yourself with your own mission and vision, and now it is up to you to make the decision and provide your own sense of expectations.
I know it’s hard but one thing is for sure is that I am starting to realize that I really don’t know what is going to happen in my life. Life is so unpredictable and ever-changing and moving. Life is like a non-stop roller coaster going up and down on the tracks. This is a perfect picture of what life is like. I think that it shows the happy or joyful times and at times the sad times or the hardships of life. It is funny that one minute life can be a blast then the next minute life can be at its worst. People go through a wide range of feelings and emotions throughout the day. If though that is how life will be, one thing is for sure, you can create your own sense of destination. The destination of people and the meaning behind it will vary greatly but it is at the sense of fulfillment that you can sit back after you reached there and relax. You will have a sense of accomplishment and content knowing that you have survived, knowing you can survive anything you want and that you did everything you could. This the true meaning behind life, life is all about how you survive, what you did to you survive, and feeling like you did everything in your humanly power to survive it and make it come true. That is what I mean when I say “Life just keeps on going and going…and that is truth. Learning never stops because as long as you are still alive, you will still need to learn as well if you as one of the quotes by Henry Ford say “Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty.”
